SILENT NIGHTMARE!

Honestly, I adore Bring Me The Horizon and their screamo Oliver Sykes. Dorang awesome gila(: Cool kot? Well, I can't scream, I can't even play lead guitar and moreover I can't play double palde so well. Actually I started my band was to play Indie Rock since I can't play hardcore. I'm not saying that I'm a poseur (well you might say that) I just like the music. And since my band have not the same interest as I am so I can't play Indie Rock. The band is called SILENT NIGHTMARE because of my band mates decided to play hardcore. Hem? Ok. Hardcore is fine I just don't feel right for hardcore. Right now, I just follow the wind. I don't want to make my own decision. It's a band not a solo man. Zaidi just joined our band and he's a screamer. They wanted to play hardcore and my drummer sucks at double palde so I have to play drum. I'm not saying it's not cool. It is cool. It's just I don't know what to do right now. But, I should follow them. After all, they are my band. When the band first started, I was determine to be the vocals but then, I can't sing. Like my ex bands used to said " Suara kau cam kartun ah weh" Well ok. I was upset but I moved on. I try to play lead guitar and yep I sucks a lot too and leading guitar. So I just play Rhythm Guitar. I felt bad for kicking my ex bandmates out. I bet they felt dissapointed at me. Well I'm about to leaving my current band but I'm naive. If i leave, then I lost my friends too. I'm tired of all of this. Band, life, study and bla bla bla. Idk why? Hem. HANIS, she's special to me. Even she's not like you(touching or wtv) she's still love me. I think I don't share too much problems with her because she has her own problems. I understand. I'm not that popular and nobody wants to hangout with me. Even my bandmates. I think it is because of my attitude. I'm trying to be normal as I can. I just don't know how. I'm upset and I don't know what more to write on about. The End