For heaven's sake I know you're sorry
But you won't stop crying
This anniversary may never be the same
Inside I hope you know I'm dying
With my heart beside me
In shattered pieces that may never be replaced
And if I died right now you'd never be the same
Excell Training Camp. I met you there. On the second night in the hall. You were wearing white kurung and tudung. When I first saw you, I smiled at you and you ignored me. You were absulotely gorgeous that night. And I remember you were taller than me. The next day, we having our lunch on the same table. How sweet. I showed her my ID tag and she ignored it again. I'm not suprised. I knew she was blushing all over. And that day was the last day at the training camp. I wanted to mmeet her and ask for her number. But I cant find her. Yet I still dont know her name. Until two or three days later when Arysha (Her pet sis back at the camp) add me. And Arysha said she wanted to know my email because she didn't get to add me at Myspace. So I gave it to Arysha and then the next time I check she add me. At first, I'm not sure that is she. Then she said it is her. She wrote about me on her blog. And I blush. She said I was way to poyo and kerek gila and bajet. But I dont care. At that time I was in love with her. We shared almost everything. Feelings, and so on. She didnt like to being upset. And I found her interesting. So I said those three words on 7 July. From there onwards we are having the greatest life we ever had. She wants to travel around the world in her very own VW bus. In yellow. I admire that. She's wild in her own way. She's having problems with boys. Well its her own secrets. So I didnt get to hold her hands, hug her on even kiss her. And I'm upset sb tk dapat pegang. We had this feeling for fours months. Until, she did something. Like all my ex did. I cant tell. Haih I'm too upset. This feelings, I never had since I left Farah. It kills me. I'm sry. We had our four months together and I really love it. But I cant. You were special. This is my last goodbye. Goodbye. And please stop bothering me. I need some space. I'm sorry.